I'm lost and confused about the recent events in my life. I miss my children so badly and just wish that someone could explain to me how i am supposed to start over when i have no desire to keep on living without my children in my life. My friend Belle Ame has this posted in her Blog and it is beautiful...I just wanted to share it with everyone: If Tomorrow Begins Without Me.... If Tomorrow Begins Without Me By Martha White ©1996 When tomorrow starts without me and I'm not there to see.. If the sun should rise and find your eyes.. all filled with tears for me. I wish so much you wouldn't cry.. the way you did today, while thinking of the many things we didn't get to say. I know how much you love me, as much as I love you, and each time you think of me I know you'll miss me too. But when tomorrow starts without me, please try to understand.. an angel came and called my name and took me by the hand He said my place was ready.. in heaven far above, but said I would have to leave behind.. all those I dearly love. But as I turned to walk away, a tear fell from my eye, for all my life, I'd always thought.. I didn't want to die. I had so much to live for.. and so much yet to do, it seemed almost impossible that I was leaving you. I thought of all the yesterdays.. the good ones and the bad, I thought of all the love we shared and all the fun we had. If I could relive yesterday, I thought, just for awhile.. I'd say goodbye and kiss you and maybe see you smile. But then I fully realized.. that this could never be, for emptiness and memories.. would take the place of me. And when I think of worldly things, that I would miss tomorrow.. I think of you, and when I do, my heart is filled with sorrow. But as I walked through heaven's gates.. I felt so much at home, as God looked down and smiled at me, from His great, golden throne, He said, "This is eternity and all I've promised you", Today life on earth is past.. but here it starts anew. I promise no tomorrow, but today will always last, and since each day's the same day, there's no longing for the past. But you have been so faithful, so trusting, and so true. There were those times.. you did some things.. you knew you shouldn't do. But you have been forgiven and now at last you’re free. So won't you take my hand.. and share my life with me? So when tomorrow starts without me.. don't think we're far apart, for every time you think of me.. I'm right here in your heart. ..