by, November 24th, 2008 at 01:07 PM (611 Views)
I guess you can say I have a pretty sketchy past. Who doesn't right? I am sure all of you can think of a couple (or a couple million) of stupid things you have done in your past. I am not necessarily talking about regret either. Save that talk for your therapist. You don't have to regret it for it to be completely stupid.
I am a master at placing blame. I could probably go through some pretty tragic events in my childhood and explain how that particular event led to future bad behavior and everyone, including those with degrees in psychology, would completely agree. That is a cop out though. Everytime I made a bad decision, deep down I knew it was a bad decision. I just always hoped there would never be any consequences.
There are always consequences. I know that now.
"I am young" and "You only live once" don't necessarily always work.
As we grow older and our lives change people come and go. I always thought that all of the people who knew of anything stupid in my past would be gone. Big surprise, I was wrong about that too.
I am a different person now and am proud of that, but can't seem to overcome these feelings of shame and guilt.
I saw this glittery comment today...
There comes a point in your life when you realize who matters, who never did, who won't anymore, and who always will, so don't worry about people in your past. There's a reason they didn't make it to your future.♥
I try not to worry about people in my past.
Maybe the feelings of guilt are regret. I think regret is such a waste of time. There is nothing I can do to go back and change my past.
I just hope if I can continue on being proud of the person I am, eventually everything else will be something I can laugh about when I am 90 because I will definitely live that long.