DD is my therapy
by, November 22nd, 2008 at 02:08 PM (667 Views)
I felt the need to write and ramble a little or maybe a lot who knows when I start to write I never know how or where it will end..You will have to excuse my typos though my fingers have a hard time keeping up with my thoughts and I am not the best typer..(is that a word)
I found DD through googling a case I am sure we all know what case :) It doesn't matter how I found it I am just glad I did.You would be amazed and shocked if you could step into my mind for a short time..
I can relate to some of the stories here...I have lived a couple..The difference being I was one of the lucky ones I got out alive and I am not in prison, in a nut hut,living on the streets or on drugs (well depends on if you count maryjane as a drug and thats debatable and for another blog) ..
I feel most of these stories to the core of my heart..I cry for all the children who didn't make it out..I aspire to be a better person in their honor..You hear to many criminals use the excuse they were abused as a child and that is why they are like they are ..Well I say BULLSHIT..
I was abused but I never killed, molested kidnapped,carjacked or robbed anyone in my life..It is a lame excuse to use your past as an excuse for your present..I mean don't get me wrong I have issues I know stem from my childhood but I work on them..
From the moment I started reading DD something good happened..I wanted to be even better I have seriously calmed down a whole lot..I stop to think more before I speak and that is a major accomplishment for me..I want to be the exception not a statistic..I refuse to let what my parents and the state did to me decide who or what I will be, or how I will act as an adult..That is if I ever decide to grow up and be an adult..
This site really has been great therapy for me I told Imp she should probably charge me hourly :)~ I have met some really awesome people here..Some very caring thoughtful people..I have also laughed my ass off on numerous occasions at the sarcastic and witty people..
I am sarcastic opinionated and sometimes to outspoken for my own good but I have a heart like oatmeal all mushy and shit..It makes for a very interesting combination in a person..
I guess I have rambled on enough my main point to all this was a HUGE thanks to all my fellow Demons and to the site for helping me be a better me..