It feels so wierd to me how life just keeps on keeping on.

Vacation in Florida was interesting. It was too hot to really enjoy anything, and my husband the fun nazi had us trooping through not one but 2 theme parks each day. I got heatstroke on Wednesday, spent the night so sick, and Finally Thursday night I told him to go spend time with his family or our friends, Paige and I were having a girls night in. So we got room service and ate on the porch of our villa, watching a crazy...

More randomness about my thoughts/feelings on the dad situation. Don't look for sense or coherency here because there is none.

Firstly, huge thanks to everyone for your words and sharing your experiences. This death thing is very new to me, and it remains such an alien concept to me. It's good to know that others have dealt with this stuff and lived to see another day.

My dad is not a great man, but he is a good man. He wasn't always a perfect dad. He was just a young...

So, we're buying a house. Which is a shocking but welcome departure from our normal, scramble to come up with our $2250/month rent every month. It'll be nice to own our own home, and not have a monthly payment? Oh, hell yeah.

What could I possibly find to bitch about in this scenario?, you may ask. Let me tell you.

Erik's mom is buying us a home. Not making a down payment, she's forking over $175k for us to find a home and buy it with. No mortgage, no financing, no...

I couldn't be fucking happier. We had the scary neuro appointment this morning (I swear, she was a fat, hairy little Hobbit with a very pleasant English accent ). I was a mess. Paige was a little nervous. And everything is fine. No tumor, cancer, seizures, or any other horrible scenarios I've been rolling around in my mind.

She's having migraine headaches, apparently, and the dizzy spells are precursors to it. I'm fucking thrilled. I know, what kind of a mother would be...

Anybody who knows me knows that optimism is NOT my strong point. My worldview leans towards the fatalistic. I tend to fall into despair and fear when faced with a challenge. I do not know why this is, only that it is.

My life has gone through such dramatic changes over the last few years. Hell, just in the last 6 months, even. And almost all of those changes sent me into a spiral of panic, fear, and self doubt. No matter how many times I've proven to myself that I have what it takes...