blue_zombie
October 11th, 2008, 10:45 PM
I was born on a dark cold night with a twinkle in my eye, a laugh in my lungs, and a smile on my lips. I’m made of all things nice that little girls are made of. A fiery spirit (1 ½ c. spit & 2 c. vinegar), a sweet disposition (1 tsp. sugar & 1 c. spice), attitude (4 oz. hot damn 100 & 2 ltr. Patron tequila). I was a rather precocious child growing up, getting into things, discovering things, figuring things out. To say I was a “difficult” child is quite the understatement. Not that I was bad…..I was just, aware.
At an early age I discovered that I really didn’t like people. Because of that discovery, I’ve learned to follow my instincts and to just hate everyone equally. Honestly, it saves me so much time just assuming that the masses are ignorant and not worthy of my time. As a result, and contrary to popular belief, I was a rather quiet, bookish child, who preferred spending most of her time alone. I say contrary to popular belief because at first glance I appear gregarious, extroverted, funny, and smart mouthed. And while I am all those things, and more, it is not truly the center of who I am; which shall always remain a mystery-until Pandora’s Box is opened in any case. But I digress, back to the story of my evolution.
Similar to the caterpillar, at some point a butterfly must emerge, and emerge I did. Emerging from the dreaded phase of “puberty” (I prefer to think of it as emerging from the depths of hell), I ended up at 5’7”, 130 pounds, with real boobies, and zits. While the rest of the girls were 5’3”, with mosquito bites, at 100 lbs, and a few slight blemishes, I was the one who stood out, towered above the rest if you will. That emergence has forever marked me as the girl who stands above all the rest. Literally and figuratively, I’ve always been “different” from everyone else in a strangely unique and lovable way.
This marked difference that I speak of has lead me to act out my many personalities ranging from the extreme attitude to sugary fairy god-person. It has allowed me to speak out about my beliefs and my opinions without fear of retribution or shame. I have always been able to travel my own path only asking directions when I decide I want them and to go wherever the wind blows me. Sure, I’ve had my encounters with the dragons in the forest and mythical creatures of the seas, but I’ve come out whole on the other side. I refuse to allow life’s circumstances to encroach on the person that I am nor will I allow any obstacles to overcome my journey.
In closing, I would like to introduce you to me, myself, and I. I am many things, a mother, a lover, a friend, a sister, an aunt, but never will I be ordinary.
At an early age I discovered that I really didn’t like people. Because of that discovery, I’ve learned to follow my instincts and to just hate everyone equally. Honestly, it saves me so much time just assuming that the masses are ignorant and not worthy of my time. As a result, and contrary to popular belief, I was a rather quiet, bookish child, who preferred spending most of her time alone. I say contrary to popular belief because at first glance I appear gregarious, extroverted, funny, and smart mouthed. And while I am all those things, and more, it is not truly the center of who I am; which shall always remain a mystery-until Pandora’s Box is opened in any case. But I digress, back to the story of my evolution.
Similar to the caterpillar, at some point a butterfly must emerge, and emerge I did. Emerging from the dreaded phase of “puberty” (I prefer to think of it as emerging from the depths of hell), I ended up at 5’7”, 130 pounds, with real boobies, and zits. While the rest of the girls were 5’3”, with mosquito bites, at 100 lbs, and a few slight blemishes, I was the one who stood out, towered above the rest if you will. That emergence has forever marked me as the girl who stands above all the rest. Literally and figuratively, I’ve always been “different” from everyone else in a strangely unique and lovable way.
This marked difference that I speak of has lead me to act out my many personalities ranging from the extreme attitude to sugary fairy god-person. It has allowed me to speak out about my beliefs and my opinions without fear of retribution or shame. I have always been able to travel my own path only asking directions when I decide I want them and to go wherever the wind blows me. Sure, I’ve had my encounters with the dragons in the forest and mythical creatures of the seas, but I’ve come out whole on the other side. I refuse to allow life’s circumstances to encroach on the person that I am nor will I allow any obstacles to overcome my journey.
In closing, I would like to introduce you to me, myself, and I. I am many things, a mother, a lover, a friend, a sister, an aunt, but never will I be ordinary.