Owd Scrat
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Hi all
I've just been in hell for weeks now. I don't know if I'm going or coming.
A little after Hallowe'en my son Seth who's 3 in January was diagnosed with Leukemia. He's really sick and with the treatment now even worse. Hes been such an angel though, I spend every moment he's awake with him, it's so so precious now. It always was but its in sharp relief and I love him moe than anything in the world. The doctors are positive about the outcome.
I was very angry now I'm extremely depressed and am terrified, I don't what to say, do or think anymore. I hide everything for him, I don't want him to see me scared, crying or anything. I feel like I'm going to break and lose my mind.
I don't know. I just can't grasp the idea of losing him, I can't make it if he does. What do I do????
I'm very alone with no family. My mom died 6 years ago. My sisters are back in Wi.
I'm stark fucking terrified and lost. I don't even know exactly why I'm posting this , to reach out in this hell I guess. I feel I have no right to impose on others. I am not myself at all, whatever that is. I dont know anything, anymore.
Please please pray, send positive energy, kind thoughts and whatever luck you can spare to my precious angel. I jokingly call him my angel cherub lover babe, among the other dozen nicknames I have for him.
Thank you very much for being able to post and share something so devasting.
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I've just been in hell for weeks now. I don't know if I'm going or coming.
A little after Hallowe'en my son Seth who's 3 in January was diagnosed with Leukemia. He's really sick and with the treatment now even worse. Hes been such an angel though, I spend every moment he's awake with him, it's so so precious now. It always was but its in sharp relief and I love him moe than anything in the world. The doctors are positive about the outcome.
I was very angry now I'm extremely depressed and am terrified, I don't what to say, do or think anymore. I hide everything for him, I don't want him to see me scared, crying or anything. I feel like I'm going to break and lose my mind.
I don't know. I just can't grasp the idea of losing him, I can't make it if he does. What do I do????
I'm very alone with no family. My mom died 6 years ago. My sisters are back in Wi.
I'm stark fucking terrified and lost. I don't even know exactly why I'm posting this , to reach out in this hell I guess. I feel I have no right to impose on others. I am not myself at all, whatever that is. I dont know anything, anymore.
Please please pray, send positive energy, kind thoughts and whatever luck you can spare to my precious angel. I jokingly call him my angel cherub lover babe, among the other dozen nicknames I have for him.
Thank you very much for being able to post and share something so devasting.
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