justicenizer
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Well she retired at some stage, and then there were rumours that she was back in the business so I personally sent her an email asking her if any of the rumours were true..and here is her reply.
No.. I'm not. I was raped by industry related people thus my life is rather complicated.. I'm out of the game since and I'm not even interested in my personal life.. So go tell everyone you know I'm out is over and it never will be again. As far as I'm concerned the whole industry can rot away .. I hold several grudges and I'm currently in 3 lawsuits plus I'm awaiting trial. It's been a hell of a fight those responsible have money.. (had money) .. Then to top that LAs DA didn't think a porn girl should share the same rights even if it was an obvious rape. To clear the air it did not take place on set.. I knew these people for four years, I thought they were "friends" all of them were much older than me, have families ect. I went to celebrate a birthday .. Me and another model were drugged .. She was sodomized and made fun of for being black.. I TRIED to save her.. She was a great friend of mine and upon me passing out bad things happened where I later woke up in vomit..
I sought medical attention immediately and there is currently a documentary being shot on how awful this process has been..
I invite you to tell all of your friends the truth as I do not log into anything affiliated with my alter ego anymore.. I carry a lot of unneeded guilt about 18 year old choices I made and now at 23 a burden much bigger has been placed on me.. And when the timing is right I'll be sure to tell you who these people worked for and what they did exactly ..
This happened march 3, 2010 and before it occurred I had already stopped shooting and worked with my bf on set doing hair and makeup..
This event also ruined that relationship as he watched me sink into heavy depression and PTS .. May all your appreciate go to director Kevin Moore for standing beside me and fighting; for understanding that I could only watch Disney movies for months.. And saving me from suicide with unconditional love
I'm now safely placed on the east coast where I'm still undergoing therapy under the supervision of close family and friends.
The other girl involved is now my roomate; she too left the industry. Our lives are very different now and we'd appreciate it if you'd make this info more public so less people would inquire.. As everytime someone inquires it opens a wound that it just now starting to scab.
Then I asked if it was ok to post her story on forums/threads
Go for it .. Take it anywhere and everywhere..
Yes I have medical documents and police reports..
Problem is LAPD still hasn't opened my rape kit. I went in undercover and recorded them saying five times they KNEW I was raped.
Yet there's all this shit in the middle because there is so much debt in Cali they are really only prosecuting those who they will gain money.. For instance if you have a pool and a broken gate you will go to criminal court there and be fined up to 3000 dollars plus probation.. I'm very serious..
And the statistics of them prosecuting rape is minimal.
Everything was basically said without actually saying, "this was your job so you don't count"
I can't even get a lawyer to rep me because that's the DA's job.
I can't go public about who did it because I can and will probably be sued EVEN though these same people told everyone I was on heroin and I was delusional thus resulting in me submitting a clean drug test to LA direct models.
Trust me.. I've done a few things that I could get in trouble for to uncover this stuff.. It's a federal offense recording cops undercover.. And I made those recording public to my friends and family
I notified all the neighbors in that area of what took place.. They got fliers about it..
Then they rallied with loud horns to try to interrupt their shoots
My credit is ruined from rape bills that were sent to me months too late
I won't pay them
And if I ever go to jail for the things I keep trying to push I will go with pride and support
I had hundreds of people call the LA DA and tell him to take my case.. They wrote letters..
And this is all seemingly a dead end and a bad headache that I get ZERO peace from
Zero closure
No.. I'm not. I was raped by industry related people thus my life is rather complicated.. I'm out of the game since and I'm not even interested in my personal life.. So go tell everyone you know I'm out is over and it never will be again. As far as I'm concerned the whole industry can rot away .. I hold several grudges and I'm currently in 3 lawsuits plus I'm awaiting trial. It's been a hell of a fight those responsible have money.. (had money) .. Then to top that LAs DA didn't think a porn girl should share the same rights even if it was an obvious rape. To clear the air it did not take place on set.. I knew these people for four years, I thought they were "friends" all of them were much older than me, have families ect. I went to celebrate a birthday .. Me and another model were drugged .. She was sodomized and made fun of for being black.. I TRIED to save her.. She was a great friend of mine and upon me passing out bad things happened where I later woke up in vomit..
I sought medical attention immediately and there is currently a documentary being shot on how awful this process has been..
I invite you to tell all of your friends the truth as I do not log into anything affiliated with my alter ego anymore.. I carry a lot of unneeded guilt about 18 year old choices I made and now at 23 a burden much bigger has been placed on me.. And when the timing is right I'll be sure to tell you who these people worked for and what they did exactly ..
This happened march 3, 2010 and before it occurred I had already stopped shooting and worked with my bf on set doing hair and makeup..
This event also ruined that relationship as he watched me sink into heavy depression and PTS .. May all your appreciate go to director Kevin Moore for standing beside me and fighting; for understanding that I could only watch Disney movies for months.. And saving me from suicide with unconditional love
I'm now safely placed on the east coast where I'm still undergoing therapy under the supervision of close family and friends.
The other girl involved is now my roomate; she too left the industry. Our lives are very different now and we'd appreciate it if you'd make this info more public so less people would inquire.. As everytime someone inquires it opens a wound that it just now starting to scab.
Then I asked if it was ok to post her story on forums/threads
Go for it .. Take it anywhere and everywhere..
Yes I have medical documents and police reports..
Problem is LAPD still hasn't opened my rape kit. I went in undercover and recorded them saying five times they KNEW I was raped.
Yet there's all this shit in the middle because there is so much debt in Cali they are really only prosecuting those who they will gain money.. For instance if you have a pool and a broken gate you will go to criminal court there and be fined up to 3000 dollars plus probation.. I'm very serious..
And the statistics of them prosecuting rape is minimal.
Everything was basically said without actually saying, "this was your job so you don't count"
I can't even get a lawyer to rep me because that's the DA's job.
I can't go public about who did it because I can and will probably be sued EVEN though these same people told everyone I was on heroin and I was delusional thus resulting in me submitting a clean drug test to LA direct models.
Trust me.. I've done a few things that I could get in trouble for to uncover this stuff.. It's a federal offense recording cops undercover.. And I made those recording public to my friends and family
I notified all the neighbors in that area of what took place.. They got fliers about it..
Then they rallied with loud horns to try to interrupt their shoots
My credit is ruined from rape bills that were sent to me months too late
I won't pay them
And if I ever go to jail for the things I keep trying to push I will go with pride and support
I had hundreds of people call the LA DA and tell him to take my case.. They wrote letters..
And this is all seemingly a dead end and a bad headache that I get ZERO peace from
Zero closure