[MENTION=2867]TheMeaningOfItAll[/MENTION],i didnt say i forgive him and yes considering the past and whatnot i will visit him at some point...i dont condone it in the least i dunno how to explain it other than the fact i dont think it was "him" so to speak.kinda like if a ex-girl or boyfriend of yours got piss drunk and ran a whole family over it was fucked up and its horrible but hes still a friend who ive had alot of experiences with so i cant really bring myself to just outright hate him and be like oh i hope your torn apart in jail...so yeah maybe im completely fucked in the head but i just cant think of him as a complete monster without looking into his eyes one more time