McCleary, WA–McCleary, with a population of 1,550, is a town where most residents feel comfortable allowing their children to play outside until dark. In a town that size, everybody knows everybody and there are very few secrets between neighbors. Needless to say, residents in that tiny town are in shock over the disappearance of 10-year-old Lindsey Baum. Lindsey was visiting a friend’s home FridayFriday reviews
evening… her friend’s father, Scott Williams, said he asked Lindsey to go home before it got too dark. “She was here 10, 15 minutes, and then, you know, we said, ‘You should probably get going before it gets dark,’ and that was the last we heard of her,” he said. She was last seen at about 9:15 p.m., as she set off to walk the four blocks to her home…a 10-minute walk. Lindsey never made it home.
Lindsey Baum
When Lindsey hadn’t made it home by 10:50, her mother reported her missing. A search for the girl began that night. A massive search went into effect first thing SaturdaySaturday reviews
morning…searchers criss-crossed the town three times, bloodhounds were brought in, the whole nine yards. The dogs couldn’t even pick up a scent. Authorities went door-to-door to see if anyone heard or saw anything. Nothing. On Sunday, a National Guard helicopter and 20 search-and-rescue officials joined in the search, scouring the town and nearby creeks and ponds. Sunday evening, the FBI and local law enforcement started stopping every car that passed through McCleary to see if the drivers were in the area Friday night and had any information on the case. Nothing. Lindsey’s mom, Melissa Baum, says that although Lindsey is upset about her recent divorce, she doesn’t have money to run away, and has never tried to run away before. “She wouldn’t have run away,” Melissa said. “If she had been hiding she would have come out by now. She can’t hide that long, she loves to talk.” It has been reported that Lindsey had an argument with her brother that Friday evening, but nothing more than the usual sibling spat. Her father, who lives in Tennessee, has been contacted and cleared. As much as I had hoped that she was throwing a fit and hiding out at a friend’s house, after 3 days, this isn’t looking very good.
“Everybody knows everybody’s business and we’d have expected that if she was still in town. Somebody would have notified us and we haven’t had that, unfortunately,” says Dave Pimentel, Deputy Chief of the Grays Harbor Sheriff’s Office. Investigators have interviewed registered and transient sex offenders in the area. They have taken Lindsey’s computer into evidence and are checking out her Myspace accounts. They are going over her cell phone activity. Still, no leads. Police have, however, ruled out all family members as suspects.
Lindsey was last seen wearing a gray or blue hooded pullover sweatshirt, with blue jeans and black shoes. She has brown eyes, brown hair, and stands about 4-feet-9-inches and weighs about 80 pounds. Anyone with information is asked to call the Grays Harbor 911 Center at (800) 281-6944 or the McCleary Police Department at (360) 495-3107. Since her disappearance does not meet the criteria for an Amber Alert, one has not been issued.
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7:46 am on June 30th, 2009
I know it could be coincidence of course,but I found this to be quite ominous sounding…
From Lindsey’s MySpace mood and status history…
“Lindsey Baum i’ve been getting a lot of nightmares latley and i have this bad feeling that something bads gonna happen
Mood: scared scared
at 8:48 AM May 29″
Furthermore,what kind of parents allow their 10 year old’s access to MySpace??
I think that is just a recipe for disaster in itself..
8:08 am on June 30th, 2009
I hope that she is found safe.
I don’t understand why her friend’s father couldn’t just have took her home. Who the hell allows a 10 year old to walk a 10 minute walk home?
8:32 am on June 30th, 2009
Why does a 10-year-old have a MySpace?
8:41 am on June 30th, 2009
What a doll! I hope she is found soon, safe and well, but after missing for 3 days… No, It does not sound good.
8:56 am on June 30th, 2009
I second that DV. Why does a 10 year old have a myspace? It’s pretty obvious at this point someone took her. I hope she’s found alive, but I have a bad feeling. She has been missing too long.
9:16 am on June 30th, 2009
That caught my eye 2 for her status!…it also says lindsey cant wait till her brother goes to juvi. I wonder what her brother is charged for? I know they cleared all family but maybe that is what she was scared of. I know that her friends dad is gonna blame himself for not taking her home….at the same time something is not sitting right with me about him.
9:34 am on June 30th, 2009
At 7, I was allowed to walk around my neighborhood in New York City unsupervised, and I rode 4 public buses a day to get to and from school.
My ex and I debate all the time when our 9-year old daughter should be allowed to be on her own outside for any length of time. Reading this, I think “not quite yet.”
Here’s hoping for a safe return!
10:35 am on June 30th, 2009
Her mom said she fought with her brother the day she went missing, right? She was happy he was going to juvi…. I’m wondering where bro was when she disappeared.
10:44 am on June 30th, 2009
Hi Demonites … how are you able to view her MySpace mood/status updates? Her profile is set to private with last login 6/28.
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Thanks,
Selma
11:10 am on June 30th, 2009
pray pray pray
11:15 am on June 30th, 2009
I hate to hear that. Unsupervised play is a fundamental part of childhood development. Kids who don’t get any are, statistically, less fit, less social, less able to use executive functions like self control and judgment. These are things that are best developed pre-pubescently. A 9 year old is running out of time.
If you keep your child on a leash out of fear that something with one in a million odds might happen to them, I highly recommend you try to apply that bad logic to the rest of your child’s life. You will quickly find that she will be locked in a room, unable to leave for any reason. She won’t be able to ride in the car with you, as auto accidents are a MUCH more common cause of death among kids than abduction; she won’t be able to eat – a child is more likely to choke on mashed potatoes than get abducted by a stranger.
The world we live in today is far safer than it was when you and I were kids, unless you’ve failed in some other way – moved to the ghetto or have not equipped your child with knowledge of how to react when strangers approach. But if you’ve got confidence in yourself as a parent and live in a decent neighborhood, but still can’t bring yourself to let your child play unattended, you’re doing herself a grave disservice that may affect her for the rest of her life.
11:28 am on June 30th, 2009
When my kid was growing up, all the parents in the neighborhood had an unwritten agreement. If a kid was in another kid’s home and it was dark (or getting there), when it was time for them to go home, that parent would walk them home – or at least until they saw the kid go in.
I must have walked the neighbor kid home 100 times. And he lived 4 houses away, not 4 blocks. Not blaming anyone here yet, but there is no way I would ever feel comfortable sending a 10-year-old girl out of my house at night, to walk 4 blocks home by herself. Just isn’t gonna happen.
11:53 am on June 30th, 2009
Ouch.
12:01 pm on June 30th, 2009
I agree Morbid…I have watched them until they went in the door if they walked over…drove them if it was too far to walk when it was dark and waited until they were safely in the door. My daughter is usually embarrassed that I wait until the door is shut to drive off. Too Bad….just the way I am. They arent ten anymore…they are going on 15 years old…so these days its more to make sure they are sneaking off somewhere..lol. I really just cant believe the mom didnt drive her home after telling her no. There is more going on here than we are being told. Whats up with them not seeing anything on the gas station cameras…and it was reported she was walked half way by a friend…who is the friend?
12:15 pm on June 30th, 2009
And to stress, this has nothing to do with kids playing unsupervised. I let my kid play in the neighborhood just as I was allowed. But when it started to get dark, and if the kid was in my house, it was just common sense as far as I was concerned. I treated their kid as I would have wanted mine treated – and that is not to have them walk home alone 4 to 6 blocks in the late evening.
When I grew up, at 10-years-old, we were allowed free reign of the neighborhood. But when those street lights came on, you better start heading home or you would suffer the embarrassment of having your mother hollering for you like a freakin’ professional yodeler. Unlike this case, though, we were not 1/2 a mile from home.
12:26 pm on June 30th, 2009
I agree wholeheartedly with that, Morbid. I was allowed where ever I wanted while the sun was still up, but I was home by the time the street lights came on. If I was at a friend’s house who lived on the block and I wanted to stay later, either their parent would walk to the end of the drive way to see my way home, or my parents would walk to the end of the driveway to watch me arrive. But this wasn’t due to some overblown paranoia of stranger-danger, it was due to the much more realistic danger of car accidents.
1:00 pm on June 30th, 2009
I hope that she is found safe.
I don’t understand why her friend’s father couldn’t just have took her home. Who the hell allows a 10 year old to walk a 10 minute walk home?
1:01 pm on June 30th, 2009
I have no idea how to use this quote feature, can you tell?
1:15 pm on June 30th, 2009
I think ours was more for a bit of everything. The dark being a bit more ominous. Aside from stranger danger and car accidents, there is also the fact that the kid may just be scared shitless.
I remember once when I snuck WAY out of my neighborhood to about half a mile away from home to visit a kid I met in school. he told me that his Mom would drive me back. Well, before you knew it, it had gotten dark and his Mom never showed up. I couldn’t call home because I would get busted. So I started hoofing it.
I was in a strange neighborhood with no overhead street lights and a pretty decent clip from home. I did pretty good the first block. But when shit got quiet, no cars were around, the owls started their bullshit and I kept hearing dog collars jingling, I was running home like Shaggy. Hell, I may have even exclaimed a few “Zoinks!” along the way.
2:13 pm on June 30th, 2009
I had the same feeling in the pit of my stomach.
2:27 pm on June 30th, 2009
If he absolutely couldn’t take her home, why couldn’t he have said “I can’t drive you home but you can use the phone and have one of your parents come get you”?
2:31 pm on June 30th, 2009
I agree unsupervised play is important, but depending on childs age, area you live in, it has to be done with reason. And always, always, there must be boundaries; rules your child must abide to.
As a child me and my siblings had little to no supervision….trust, me we did not come out of childhood unscathed either.
I wonder if this friend is feeling really guilty and the parents not all too happy about him allowing Lindsey to leave alone in the dark at that hour, at that distance. This is were the rules parents set come into play and must always be followed by the children and parents alike.
I pray and hope this sweet child is found. The alternative just sickens me.
2:35 pm on June 30th, 2009
At that age I would have been cycling home. The standing order was to cycle even if I didn’t have my lights with me, – and to be really careful of the traffic, if I found I had to do that. They would rather pay the fine than have me walking after dark.
2:50 pm on June 30th, 2009
Really? I kinda figured that, when you were a kid, the buggies were slow enough that you could just hop out of the way.
I know what you mean about being scared, though. Sidewalks are sporadic (at best) in my neighborhood; when coming home from a friend’s house after dark, I had myself so worked up about freak car accidents, I would walk in the space between the yards and the ditches, the logic being that, should a car lose control, the ditch might provide me some safety.
Haven’t been hit by a car, yet. I did trip into a few ditches, though.
2:57 pm on June 30th, 2009
I was thinking that also…. We have seen a few times lately of parents of friends are responsible for the disappearances….. Just sayin’
3:02 pm on June 30th, 2009
<blockquoIf he absolutely couldn’t take her home, why couldn’t he have said “I can’t drive you home but you can use the phone and have one of your parents come get you”?;
This is what we do if it gets dark and our 10 year old son is at a friend’s house. The farthest house he walks (or skateboards or rides his bike)to is just one street over, but beyond our sight. We live in a good neighborhood, but if he’s out of our sight, one of us will walk over to walk him home, or if we’re feeling lazy we might drive over to get him. Everyone knows evil predators can enter any neighborhood when they’re hunting for victims.
On the other hand, I can’t say there’s never been a time he didn’t just jump on the bike and ride home when it started to get dark. But 4 blocks? Thant’s a long way for a kid. . . . . .
3:25 pm on June 30th, 2009
What?!
3:42 pm on June 30th, 2009
At least here in WA, they have to know that the child was abducted (rather than a runaway or abandoned child) and is in danger. (See Amber Alert FAQs at the link.)
3:58 pm on June 30th, 2009
So by the time they dig up any hint that the girl was actually abducted (and let’s be honest here, it’s looking very likely) it may be too late.
4:18 pm on June 30th, 2009
Witnesses were able to put Lindsey within a couple of blocks of her house just after 9:30 p.m. The last person reported to have seen her, he said, was a neighbor on her way to work.
http://abcnews.go.com/US/Story?id=7966924&page=2
4:33 pm on June 30th, 2009
hmm. idk if that is better or worse than what is going on in my head. i was leaning toward the dad of the friend. but i am not sure this news is any better.
6:54 pm on June 30th, 2009
Amber Alert issued finally http://www.codeamber.com/baumwa/
9:13 pm on June 30th, 2009
@Athena
You are insane. What world do you live in? There are less kidnappings, etc. in this world precisely because of responsible parents unlike yourself. Kids should absolutely NOT be running around unsupervised as you suggest. I can’t believe there are wide eyed idiots like yourself still out there.
I love your statistics. They are absurd. Do you know how many cases of child abuse, neglect, kidnapping, etc. go unreported. I know of 5 off the top of my head that no authority ever got wind of. Do us all a big favor and stop telling people that everything is ok in this world and that we need not be responsible for our kid’s safety. One more thing…if your absurd statistic about 1 in a million kids being abducted were true…try comforting the parent of that 1 kid. You sicken me!
9:25 pm on June 30th, 2009
Gaud,, shit talking has begun.
I ran around unsupervised until dark at the age of 9. I lived in STOCKTON CALIFORNIA.
My mother was not a bad mother. She was the norm.
I don’t let my kids run around, however, I have recently let my 12 year old walk to the store by himself and home from school, unsupervised for an hour or more sometimes. I let my 6 year old play in my unfenced yard and only check on him every 5 to 10 minutes.
They are learning to make good choices ON THERE OWN.
Throw a rock at me, I don’t care, I’ll throw it back.
9:44 pm on June 30th, 2009
Ok. How about I throw a brick. That is totally irresponsible letting the 12 year old walk to the store alone. What is he learning walking to and from school and the store on his own? Is he learning to walk? Sounds like he already knew that. It makes no sense. You are just likely being lazy. I’m sure he’s begging to go but man wait til something happens. You will regret it forever. It’s just not worth it. My parents were the same way. Were they bad parents…I don’t know. Just don’t pretend that bad people aren’t everywhere because you know what, that’s just plain wrong. Have you checked the local sex offender registry in your area. That list will be just a fraction of a fraction of the bad people your 12 year old could and WILL likely come across…especially if he has a pattern to his trips.
I’m not trying to be an ass it just really angers me when people pretend that things out there are so damn safe for children.
9:51 pm on June 30th, 2009
Everyone knows bad things only happen after dark and/or more than a few blocks from home. *sarcasm* I am glad my 6 kids had a healthy respect for dangers, but didn’t live in fear.
How can you play “Ditch” if it’s not dark?
10:57 pm on June 30th, 2009
I am all for the buddy thing. Not that having two is totally fool proof…but it does deter. Most parents who let there children out from under their wings have to believe that they have taught them well. Its a fine line to walk.
I deal with it all the time. My child is older than the ones mentioned and one day she will be on her own. They need to experience degrees of separation and freedom. Have a chance to practice what we have taught them.
Once my daughter was walking with her friend within site of the house back from the river playground, in the middle of the day, when a guy on a motorcycle asked to see their boobs..they didnt even have any back then….I could hear them screaming and ran out….called the cops and went looking for the dude. There are no guarantees but we have to learn to let go a little at a time. I refuse to let my child in a world full of fear…..live her life fear based.
I dont agree with how this story has gone down for this missing child but its unhealthy to think you can protect your child from ever little thing bad in the world. Make them aware..teach them the best you can and use logic.
If you are that sensitive I dont suggest reading this site everyday….there are alot of bad people reported here. Stick to the strange but true…they are funny as hell.
11:12 pm on June 30th, 2009
@Mysticviewer
Ok. Here is another person trying to make themselves feel better by labeling responsible people as fear mongers.
You folks are blowing things out of proportion with comments like “unhealthy to think you can protect your child from ever little thing bad in the world”. Who has said this? Certainly I didn’t.
What am I saying? Don’t let your kids walk alone out of your sight in unsafe areas. Period. There really should be no argument on this. They don’t need to be walking to the store or school on their own. What the hell do you think they are learning doing that? Nothing.
If my kid grows up a bit sheltered but a lot safer…hey I can live with that.
12:24 am on July 1st, 2009
My child is sheltered…..not imprisoned…..tho she may disagree at times..lol. Logic comes into play…if its 10 at night and dark outside…logic dictates that for the child to be safe they must be inside…not walking home alone 4 blocks. Not cool. It has taken me baby steps to allow my child to do things that I may not be 100% cool with because she will be under someone elses watch…which in my mind is never as good as my own. I understand where you are coming from, believe me. No argument here. Baby steps, baby steps.
12:34 am on July 1st, 2009
I was wondering the same thing – My neighbor let her 16 year old have one finally and she insists on knowing the password. Then I found my 14 year old niece. Hers says that she is 21 and in love. Now how is that for asking for a fucking pedo to pick her up. I hate it that kids are on there. Ugh!
1:38 am on July 1st, 2009
I’m throwing the brick back at ya. My son has been taught to ‘be safe’ all his life. He knows the dangers. I cannot and will not imprison my kids. I am actually known well for being overprotective. When my son walks to the store, less than 3 blocks away, I time him. The ladies at the store all know him by name and the store has my home phone number. He has never been allowed to spend the night at a friends house that wasn’t a very close family member, and someone I have known a long long time. That limits him to 2 houses other than grandma’s that he has spent the night at. I have plenty of relatives I won’t leave my children with. He walks home from school everyday and calls me when he walks through the door. If I get no phone call I call and if I get no answer, I call a neighbor. We have lots of safety mechanism’s set up, but at some point I have to trust him a little, no matter how difficult it is, or he will never be trustworthy. Handed no challenges, they will grow up being able to meet no challenges.
BTW I have 2 adult daughters who constantly complained about my overly protective nature while growing up, who now thank me for the fact that they have never been victimized.
The school is 4 blocks away. He has to say high to the ladies at the store on his way homs. I live in a mountain town and I know who the one registered sex offender is and so does my son. He knows what he looks like and doesn’t walk near the mans house.
No matter what you do you can’t be 100% sure that your children will not be victims. Someone can steal them at school, from the bathroom at McDonalds, from the beds at night.
The best defense you can have is to teach your child skills, like run scream, don’t let strangers approach you, and then let them practice them.
I refuse to blame the parents of this dear child for what another person has likely done. And by the way, she was sent home BEFORE it got dark. Ideally the man who sent her home, would have had her call home in advance of leaving or would have taken her home. I don’t fault the victims of this crime.
9:46 am on July 1st, 2009
good looking out on the 2nd myspace page she has. i caught that yesterday & called it in to the tip line- just in case they hadnt caught that one yet.
the 2nd one (private) seems to be the one she posts off of- (to her friend Kayla)
when she said on her status about thinking something bad was going to happen– that made my heart sink because thats exactly what my daughter told me & then she died that night. i brought that up to the tip line lady, so i’m sure she filed me under ‘crazy lady’ for pointing that out. lol
i know many that have died that knew a few days- up to a couple of months prior, that they were going to die soon. & then they did.
i hope thats not the case with lindsey. maybe thats anxiety due to the divorce & fighting with her brother a lot.
i too found it concerning that she got into such a blow up with her brother than a neighbor made the brother go home- when he was supposed to be walking her to the friends house. i mean, i know he’s only 12- but if he’s already going to juvi…..
no matter whats happened to lindsey, it’s REALLY weird that the dogs would not pick up on her scent at all! even if she was hiding or abducted in a neighbors house, the dogs would have picked that up. unless she was put in a car?
3:19 pm on July 1st, 2009
You know of kidnappings that went unreported? I know plenty of abuse and neglect cases go unreported- but the perpetrators in those cases are generally the parents themselves, not a stranger on the streets. But kidnappings??? *rollseyes*
Silly Athena, with your absurd statistics. You should be making your parenting decisions based on your emotional reaction to things people say on the interwebs, not on facts! Don’t teach your children to be independent, they can figure that out once they’re 18.
3:56 pm on July 1st, 2009
Buahahaha! I love you, Deety.
leeroyjenkinsii – I’ll take the government’s absurd statistics over your imaginary ones ANY DAY OF THE WEEK.
I don’t know what to do with emotional reactionaries. You’re absolutely impervious to the mechanics of logic. For example, your statement that “responsible parents” are responsible for the drop in abductions is absolutely baseless. Correlation does not equal causation. Yes, it’s all those parents keeping their kids locked in their room. It has absolutely nothing to do with increased sentencing for child victimizers, or public safety programs that teach kids how to avoid being kidnapped. Nothing at all. /sarcasm
Crime rates across the nation are at a 40 year low. leeroyjenkinsii, here, would like to credit all of that to hyper-protective parents. LMAO.
FACT: Over-protective parents are creating anxiety-ridden, stunted children who are living with their parents into adulthood at higher rates, having nervous breakdowns at higher rates, and are less able to exercise fundamental things like judgment and imagination. You ever smack your forehead at someone who seems to lack common sense? They probably grew up in an over-protective household. The damage being done to our children – our society – by parents like you who think so little of their children that they’re not even allowed to walk to the store themselves is real and increasingly dramatic.
The fact that you even say this suggests you are incapable of grasping the elements of child psychology being discussed in the sources I linked to above.
Oh well – can’t win ‘em all. While you’re here, though, you may want to take a look at the myriad articles we feature dealing with children taken from their parents’ beds, their beds, their own yards, right next to their parents at the park or the store, etc. Your kids are already fucked. May as well stock up on that paranoia-driving fuel.
4:00 pm on July 1st, 2009
Oh… and, on days like this, you DD regulars make me awful proud. Thanks, Mysticviewer and Scorpiogirl, for your well-reasoned responses.
7:16 pm on July 1st, 2009
You are so very welcome.
10:08 pm on July 1st, 2009
Thank you for your post…it reassures me that I am on the right track….I have been letting go for years little by little because once she is out the door…I cant live her life for her. Everything I ever let go of….had claw marks. Its easy to buy into the fear……much harder to overcome this fear based world and to practice love, if all you are taught is fear. I have always tried to find the healthy balance. Easier said than done at times. Thats where I just have to let go…..back to topic…anybody catch NG…I caught the very end as I was out. The mom is taking a poly? Is she being suspected?
12:56 am on July 2nd, 2009
I pray that she makes it home.. I’m going to definately say a prayer before I go to sleep tonight that she makes it home safely.. There’s a heaviness in my heart that tells me she may not be alive, but I hope she is.. I really do..
No matter what religion you practice, or if you don’t practice any religion at all.. send out a collective well wish/prayer for Linsey, and the Baum family..
God bless you, and comfort you through this troubling time.. Prayers are being said that your baby comes home safe..
1:35 am on July 2nd, 2009
2:00 pm on July 2nd, 2009
@ ALL You Dumbasses Here That Let Your Kids Walk Alone in Unsafe places,etc.
You people are sad. Real sad. You act like you are imprisoning your kid because you have to get off your lazy asses and walk with them or drive them somewhere. Yes, kidnappings by the way to the moron that doubted that. It was done by a family member of someone I know and that person did bring the child back…moron. All unreported to the police. Look dude/dudette if you don’t believe me read what someone else here wrote, “Once my daughter was walking with her friend within site of the house back from the river playground, in the middle of the day, when a guy on a motorcycle asked to see their boobs..they didnt even have any back then….I could hear them screaming and ran out….” I’m sorry you want to live in an imaginary world where bad things don’t happen.
As far as trusting your child goes that is not the fucking point. A 220 lb man intent on bad things IS going to be able to do as he wishes regardless of how much you trust your child.
I am not blaming the parents or the other father here. In my opinion WHOEVER does bad things to children should be shot in the head on live television every night at 12:00–great deterrent.
I am saying you folks should STOP kidding yourselves about the brutality in this world. Don’t send children out unattended–it only increases the likelihood of violence. I am sorry that it doesn’t fit in with your schedules or that you use the trust crap as an excuse for being lazy or that you just plain having more kids than you do time in a day.
As far as home invasions, etc. You should limit the possibilities there too. I have a big dog, a security system, and my favorite a really big gun. It isn’t foolproof but it helps.
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